Changing Face of Friendship

I've been trying to deny it for a while now, but it's happened. Dear friends of mine are more distant, now that my "challenges" have gone on for so long. What separates the people in my life, I think, is their perspective on the passage of time; Some focus on the tasks at hand - jobs, spouses, kids - while others look at the long-term, and most of us can switch between the two, as life necessitates. I used to spend all my time in camp #1, now I'm kind of stuck in camp #2, which makes me a lot harder to be around.

Everything I do has consequences, and I'm having a harder time determining which actions matter the most; So I kind of carry around a big cloud over my head - not on purpose, I assure you, but close friends can see the weather system, and they're tired of trying to pull me out from under it. I understand, of course. They've run out of things to say. It's hard being friends with people with chronic conditions and their families. I just hope there are a few strong souls, who can take breaks from my circumstances, as needed, and still remain in my life. Words are optional.